The truth is, there’s more than enough. No one has to die before their time.

The time has come where you begin to see the cracks and splits in our profit driven society. I wouldn’t say that I could’ve done better, but these hairline fractures would split our crystalline bubble world that we live in; The undeniable prosperity that Singapore lives in. ” Look at Singapore’s GDP per Capita and shit brix.”

Health Care has become a major concern in the recent years. Or perhaps that death became more real to me as I have matured. But it is without doubt that my parents have began to age and deep underlying problems have began to surface. And their grip on life has become increasingly tighter, as if death had to grapple on, to survive. And if your parents are within the 50 years of age, here’s my two cents.

Health Care has never been cheap, and will never be. Scheduled doctor’s appointment to have a 2min xray scan and some rudimentary checks can put you on a 2 month waiting list. Its fine if its just a regular health check, but its not when your life hangs on a thread. And this is where the social issue arises. The rich, will live longer.

With the opportunity to patronize the private hospitals with their ever so elite bred doctors and one or two to a room policy, your recovery would probably be faster. Coupled with shorter waiting times, to have a doctor check on you, this is where your money can exchange for time. While some have troubling pains with reasons they do not know, the others have already began their fight against cancer with the cocktail of pills. I’m not saying because you visited a private clinic you definitely would live longer, I’m saying that you get treated faster, and thus have a better chance of fighting diseases. Especially those that arise from ageing, the sooner it gets attention, the better you can suppress or perhaps eliminate. Note that your private clinic probably has those doctors with walls plastered with certificates of good practice and qualifications; a better chance of better treatment.

Remember the times when you were sick as fuck and you just wanted to see a doctor and get the pills and gobble them and sleep but you’re stuck in this shit polyclinic because its almost free and you didn’t want to pay the nasty consultation fee your private doctor charges?

I believe that there would be many instances where the sick were scheduled to a doctor’s appointment that had past the person’s threshold of tolerance and gave way. Or perhaps the non invasive cancer had suddenly turned active that could’ve been removed clean if they met the doctor earlier.

So why don’t the government train more doctors, hire more doctors, build more hospitals? Firstly it is extremely expensive to train doctors. They have to constantly buy bodies for students to dissect. And if you open more spaces in university for doctors, the quality would be marginalised- they only want the top 5% to be doctors lawyers etc. If more hospitals were built, a stay in would become cheaper and would eventually nibble into the government’s earnings. Afterall, they need to claim back the money they used to train the doctors. And finally, why should the government invest so much money into the ageing populous. They have little or no contribution to the country (Profit driven). But you can’t eliminate them, the emotional stress put onto the younger generation (working force) would cripple their potential and eventually the economy.

So, be an asshole and subtly eliminate these older generation by giving them as much treatment as they need to show that the government cares, but not enough to keep them alive. And unless you’re rich, which indirectly means you are from a successful family, hence a successful breed, you get more attention and treatment. And this is how the rich lives longer.

With baby boomers (our parents’ generation) begin to cross over to the sickly and disabled, this crease would rip apart. There will be a lot needed to be put in to cope with the burst of patient treatment required. By the way, my cousin had to work on cny eve, thats to say that even doctors are up to their necks with the workload.

And this is why if you own a porsche, lamboghini, and ferrari and park along the toyotas in the hospital, sure, you cannot avoid death like them, but you can prolong your life.

For a few to be immortal, Many must die.

Baba: There is only one sin, only one. And that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of theft… When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife’s right to a husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, you steal someone’s right to the truth. When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness.

It used to be effortless. Like it was second nature to look to God through the daily works. It didn’t require hesitation and second guessing. Like I was so courageous; that hope could be easily dispensed.

I don’t know how did it get to this, most importantly has this made me a better person? And one thing’s for sure, it gets much more lonely when it hits you that there’s a chance there’s no one watching over you and that you’re on your own to fend for yourself.

So when people ask me if a God create the universe. I tell them that the question itself makes no sense. Time didn’t exist before the big bang. So there is no time for God to make the universe in. Its like asking for directions to the edge of the Earth. The Earth is a sphere; it doesn’t have an edge. So looking for it is a futile exercise.

I do wish to believe that there is a benevolent God watching over us. That there is an ultimate good to all the evil in the world. That justice would be paid. But it has been becoming increasingly difficult. It requires myself to deceive my own conscious thinking. And church, turns out to be one of the most repulsive place. There is little silence and peace to be amongst God, if He was there.

She said, ‘I’m so afraid.’ And I said, ‘Why?’ and she said, ‘Because I’m so profoundly happy, Dr. Rasul. Happiness like this is frightening.’ I asked her why and she said, ‘ They only let you be this happy if they’re preparing to take something from you,‘ and I said,’ Hush up, now. Enough of this silliness.’

“There is only what you do and what you don’t do”.

As you shyly gaze into mine.

There’s so much to forget.

Apparently someone searched yicong faith wordpress and got linked to my blog. At least thats what wordpress told me.

Every street of Kabul is enthralling to the eye
Through the bazaars, caravans of Egypt pass
One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs
And the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls

 There, the future did not matter. And that the past held only this wisdom: That love was a damaging mistake, and its accomplice, hope, a treacherous illusion. And whenever those twin poisonous flowers began to sprout in the parched land of that field, Mariam uprooted them. She uprooted them and ditched them before they took hold.

WordPress just sent me my annual report. Feel like porrfessional only siol.

They may not have a single cent in their pocket, but everywhere you turn, it is a monument of your belonging to the city. While we have none.

I have my BTT on wednesday, and I haven’t started so i’m quite shitting my pants and the trip has refreshed me. And for the next 6 weeks, 4.0 again lololol. This time got high chance.

Happy new year my readers, may your life be filled with experiences that will be etched into your memory.

My resolution is figure what is real, what is life and what is love.

And finally, through 2011 I’m deeply thankful for the friends that I still have. The people who stood me through this year. Through the good and the bad times.