Dedicated Aspirations

August 20, 2008

Courageous

Filed under: Emotions, Thoughts — Tags: — alvern @ 1:44 pm

I fear nothing.

I’m sorry, if i did not make it clear.

I fear nothing.

if i hadn’t made it clear enough.

i fear, nothing.

When there are no boundaries, its hard to know where to work from. Or probably start.

Do you remember a time when someone asked you a question. And you didnt know how to reply. Because his/her question was so vague that you didnt know what he/she was looking for?

When there is no growth, it isnt healthy. Nor is it unhealthy. Unhealthy=dying. Thats why i fear Nothing. Because it is unpredictable.

If you still havent gotten what i meant, I fear when there is no thing.

leave a comment as well, who feels that you’ve been treated by rick overly well.

Because i have, and every time i want to treat him, he initiates to treat me first.

August 17, 2008

Average

Filed under: Religion, Thoughts — Tags: , — alvern @ 2:57 pm

Dont just be Average.

Dont compare with the Average.

Dont conform to the Average.

Because we’re not an Average kid

We are Christians. Take a stand.

Be Outstanding not Average

pweety owwangge.=D

You’ll never walk alone

Filed under: Thoughts — Tags: , , — alvern @ 4:38 am

I’m sure we’re all aware of gold medalist Michael Phelps.

what you didnt know, he has 50% chance of being diagnosed Marfan Syndrome.

yay, i’m not alone in this..hahahha.apparently marfan syndrome people are great swimmers due to their long arm span. But my arm’s as long as my height, so..hahahaha..(it isn’t disproportionately  defective)

and because of the hypermobility of the joints, swimming would be great.

i dont know how true is Phelp’s condition, but oh wells.

Marfan Syndrome usually leads to heart complications so..oh wells.

August 15, 2008

Racing

Filed under: Emotions, Thoughts — Tags: , — alvern @ 1:20 pm

how do you walk the elongated route to travel from point a to point b without taking a detour from the normal route you’d take.

Impossible?

heres how.

To tilt your head across fairfield along the corridors and spot every single face that hope has seen, but left, and then, you would have successfully crossed the borders of the physical world.

trust me, it aint easy.

August 13, 2008

Futuristic

Filed under: Uncategorized — alvern @ 1:55 pm

it wasn’t till yesterday that u kept wishing u were 18 when u were 16, u kept wishing u were 21 when u were 18, and when u were 30, u wished u were 18 again.

Sometimes i think to myself, why don’t i just live for myself, Its so much less complicated. I can understand myself, and i dont really have to bother about anything else but myself. Life is so simple, all i need, is myself, all i need is to sustain each breath. Pretty simple isn’t it.

Yes to a certain extent, i’m no social person. I can talk less than 100 words in a day. And sometimes, it multiplies to a 1000. but i never stop thinking.

I wonder to myself, why to i constantly want to lead more people.

Its like, hey, when i was a baby, i was fed everything and anything i needed, and i wanted to walk. It wasnt before long that i decided to run. And now aspirations to drive. I used to dream of being a commercial pilot which was then abruptly destroyed when zach told me, singapore has limited space for planes. But its okay, its just a random thought.

It seems as though something drive me more and more, and i get less aware of why i am doing it. Its so simple just to quit. Possibly, u can call this the midspirituallife crisis. I’m feeling that things aren’t worth enough of the effort i’m putting in.

And i’ve began to start dreaming less. I keep pondering on the past. I keep thinking of EVERYTHING i have yet to accomplish, but never everything i will accomplish. huge difference here. One feels like a dread, the other, is chasing dreams.

I’ve never known things could turn out so much of a challenge than expected. I really thought this mighty God can really pull me through everything, and i’m not saying he cant, He’s probably pulled me through a dozen of forthcomings each day of my life, but what about me.

Somehow it feels awfully disgusting when i have no strength, everything i’ve done is not me. I have no acclaims. I’ve done nothing. God’s done everything. Note, i’m not saying that God has possessed me, it just a selfish desire for acclaims.

Its devastating to keep thinking of whats next and whats next in my to do list for others to find out that i have no time for myself. I cant even sit down to just look at the stars. Not to say, there arent any angle in Singapore that u can see them from. Except the quarry in bukit timah hill and the other smaller islands around singapore. I cant live for myself. I cant even think about myself. there just isnt enough time.

And this is what i go through every single of my day. The ravishing thoughts of a thinker, and a futuristic person. Yet i have to keep track of all these thoughts, clump them together, reason them out with biblical principals and then get on. This doesnt take 3 seconds, i takes a minimum 5 minutes. To get out of a recent downfall. And this is what you would get when you decide to change the world, conflicts. Regardless internal or external, conflicts are major proportion of your life.

Random Musings

Filed under: Thoughts — Tags: , — alvern @ 1:11 pm

How do you differentiate a normal girl from a biblical hope female

One dresses to go for high tea, the other is clad in fbt.

*dont kill me*

Conspiracy

Filed under: Religion, Thoughts — Tags: , — alvern @ 12:31 am

If Christianity is a religion, its the worst one any religion offers. c’mon, name me a religion that doesnt require offerings.

August 12, 2008

Nature

Filed under: Uncategorized — alvern @ 2:10 pm

you may feel confined here, but its far from the cage they would put you in.-heroes

and in some countries, jail seems better than the roadside. Ironical, but true.

August 10, 2008

Finally

Filed under: Emotions, Uncategorized — Tags: — alvern @ 11:51 am

There was internal conflict again. I’m always spending time thinking about the eventual outcome(future). Probably calling me a futuristic person would seem to be a perfect brief representation of me. I’ll admit, i really do spend a lot of my time thinking, about the future.

i had a decision to make. Not a really big one. It was just whether to go to school. I mean, DUH, i have to go to school. But you must understand, i’ve never broken pass 3 weeks of consecutive schooling. So, hmm. The exteremly uncoordinated planning of the event was located at bishan, half way across Singapore. Sorry josh, but its true isnt it.

i mean, i had every right to not go. Come, think with me, 4 hours at bishan stadium celebrating an event which was badly planned, and located so far away, THINK WITH ME, could the time be more well spent? Probably yes!

but i guess God didnt want it to go that way. He didnt plan anything ahead for me. NOTHING. i mean, nothing to clash with my school. So i had to go. I’m holding on to God’s title all over me. In the end i just went, and camped over joshua’s house after the stupidiest event i’ve ever been to. I mean i suppose even my 1st planned caregroup was way better than this.

August 7, 2008

Perhaps So.

Filed under: Thoughts, Time — Tags: , — alvern @ 1:06 pm

Camp has passed for 8 weeks already. What is left after camp now is truly dedication. What is it, my friend. Do you truly know?

Probably from this post onwards, i’d use music to convey my message.

oh wells, we’ll see.

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